Do you ever just spend time with a person and everything’s good and then one day he does or says something that casts a different light on everything? Like he smiles, shakes his head, laughs, and says, “What?!” or pulls you close while you’re pretending to be asleep and lightly runs his fingers down your side and you think,
“Oh no. No, no, no, no. I’m not allowed to feel like this.”
I’ve liked you for a very long while now, but I think it’s time that I distance myself. It’s like window shopping. I can see you, but there’s a glass wall between us. One day a girl will fall in love with you and you’ll love her back. The stars will align, but I’ll be in the darkness. She’ll shatter the glass that separated us and you’ll be happy with her, happier than you’ve ever been with me. It’ll break me; I’ll crash to the floor and fall into a thousand pieces.
It’s gotten to the point where the pain of not seeing you again is shadowed by the pain of your never wanting me. So I’m leaving before I die while watching you hold another.
I think you either love someone forever or you never loved him at all.
So when I shatter, please, take a shard of me and keep it with you forever.
Because I love you.
In the end, only three things matter: how much you loved, how gently you lived, and how gracefully you let go of things not meant for you.